“must everything you do wanna make me smile? can i not like you for awhile? but no one in this world knows me the way you know me, so you’ll probably always have a spell on me.”
don’t you just hate the real life? don’t you just hate pretending like nothing has happened? don’t you just hate seeing another boy/girl trying to get your crush? don’t you just hate seeing the person you love so much goes? don’t you just hate being alone? don’t you just hate the moments where you have been spending good times with that person? don’t you just hate the plans that you have planned went wrong? don’t you just hate the fact that love is very unfair?
i’m being like elijah. having everything. having happiness, wanting for school changing but always reminding ourselves of the past. elijah, you are my emo dude. and i am that chic where you called her chump.
but i think positively, it isn’t the end. though i am trying to get rid of the pushing in me. and i am trying to get myself to think that we will always be friends. i am trying to make myself waiting for a miracle. though i have been waiting for ages. now i am really out of words. or maybe i still have words clinging in my mind. not that i want to type it out. as a bestfriend’s promise, i shall write a book. this is a promise to my bestfriends. the perfect seven aren’t the only bestfriends i have. no offence, guys. but helena and nursiah are my bestfriends too. they have been my bestfriends in kindergarden.
maybe fate isn’t on my side for the time being. though i hope it would be. but i hope it is going to be. this year should have been a blast. it is, but there were cracks.
have you done something just to impress the person you love? have you sacrifice something just to get the person’s attention? have you done something you don’t really enjoy just to get him/ her to know you have the same interest as you do? have you done something you don’t know just to get him/ her to teach you? have you done something on purpose just to talk to him/ her whereas you can just say hi?
i’m sure girls that’s reading this had done something like this. and when that person fades away from your life, yes, you think your life is over. because you made him the center of your world. and because he is the asnwer to all questions you need to know. though your friends said you have a perfect family and great friends, all you can think is that you regretted, you’re hurt, you feel like crying and oh, better yet, you were reminding yourself of the good times you had and looking at the stuffs he/she had given you or the pictures you took together. what an unfair life we have, don’t we?
but don’t blame yourself. God have given us tests. to test how far can our patience go. no matter what religion are you. Islam or Christian or Buddha or Jewish. we all face the same circumstances. i am not being racist. but its the truth, isnt it? this have been a very long post. i did not expect it would be this long. but since i have it in mind, i’ll just write it out, for you guys to read and think. God is always there to help. whenever you need help, remember Him. for He is the Merciful of All.
maybe i should write a book. for my family, friends and i, myself to read.
