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i’m a triplet! my twins are the pengirans. i don’t remember who was it who told hafiy and i that we look alike. x)

hey sugarcane <3

it’s currently 3.26 in the morning, and i’m not asleep. i miss these kind of days where i’m still awake at 3- 4 in the morning. and usually at this time, i’ll be chatting with qalissa which is wayy in oman. but now, i’m chatting with my two bestfriends, pengiran and aizat. (: i’ve this sudden feeling that i am going to be moving next year. and i certainly have lots of plans before i leave.

i’m going to miss everyone especially sharifah nuril barieyah, siti khadijah, abang muhammad aizat, pengiran hazieq iz’zat, sharifah sarah yasmin and eshwari priya ravindra. second best that i’ll miss, nur aznieda fatiha, natalie gui, mohd. delon, abdul haziq, fellow teresians and 4sc4 ‘09. <3

xx

food!

i’m having bread and banana for dinner. i didn’t know it tastes so good! eventhough it’s a bit icky. hahaha. currently talking to my first boy best friend, Azriel! bestfriends since we were 8. eight years have passed. (; love you lots! azriel’s the one who said ’syaeeza can speak good english too!’ to ms. irene back in primary 4. cause ms. irene totally looked down on me, she was our english teacher from primary 4- primary 6. i proved her wrong by getting an A for english in upsr. hahaha. OH WELL. good all times.  i shall see you soon, azriel!

i’ve been listening to bad romance by lady gaga on repeat since afternoon. addictive. and the dance moves in her video. wicked. looks easy. sooo. going out on tuesday. with the band. (: and thursday, new moon outing. pfft. sikpa. hahaha. 30th, with the teresians! i superly pray to Allah to let azra and jaja out. lamak sik nanggaaaaa (yerr, baruk july) since the food fair. ahhh, i really miss riding horses. )): i want a pony.

pretty much did my research on people. hahahaha. okay. that’s all for now. need more food. haha.

xx

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i’m going to be at home, by myself tonight. everybody’s going out. i need pure entertainment. to keep myself company. so i won’t feel lonely. maybe i’ll get one of my cats downstairs and bring them up to the room with me. cause i know they’ll behave well. even if it’s just hiding. loneliness leads to depression. i don’t want to feel depressed. gah. it’s okay. i’ll just bring my cat with me later. and talk on the phone. or have some webchat. -.- sucker.

uncertainty

every plan i make, every invitation i get, everytime i say yes, i’ll go and cancel it off. gah. neddy’s potluck party on wednesday. i’ve gotten the permission to go. and yet, i changed my mind over something that came up. supposed to go out with the bestfriends this afternoon. but no, i didn’t go, cause i changed my mind. two more outings next week. am i able to save it without cancelling them off? what if this really is my last year in kuching? i just hope that when the decision is made, january’s going to be the last. on the bright side..

congratulations to KHAIRANI FITRI JOHARI for getting straight a’s in upsr. love youu, my best cousin. <3

x

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i know, i sounded excited about going to the party tonight. but, something came up and pretty much ruined the mood this morning, i changed my mind. i don’t want it to get worser. soo, neddy. i’m soooooo sorry. i’ll make it up to you. promise.

however, i want to get some colourful threads to make lots of bracelets. where can i get them eh?